Gloom

Just a couple shots from my recent road trip to the bay. Central California truly is a boring drive

Le sigh

Life's ups and downs; I've had many

You'd think I would have gained the wisdom to spot the bullshit that blocks me from happiness sooner. Alas...not so.

So, do I turn my back and walk?or continue with the struggle head on?

School owns me

Still nine weeks left and I'm already, metaphorically speaking, balls deep into my final project for my Marketing class: a business model/proposal for a retail store. My shit's so bomb I'm considering it when I'm done with school. My dude would be the sharpest dressed man alive; making the panties drop


(just some notes..."clean car" is a highly important aspect of after school specials)

Sad day...

It’s a pity to me that kind words are only truly shared on a tragic occasion like a funeral. We should practice more the art of making our friends and loved ones feel loved; letting them know the special places they hold in our hearts and minds.

A dear friend of mine lost her husband far too early in life, at the age of 36; their children, lost their father. She has physically been there for me in the past through dark times and when physicality was not available, she provided her ear. She loves nothing more than to torture me by forcing human emotional interactions with hugs and to watch me squirm by telling me ‘I love you’; knowing full well that I am not good with exposing feelings. Today at her husband’s funeral, I freely offered up those words in return. I hope she knows that she’s got me in her corner for anything she needs.

One of my favorite poems came to mind during the service today, as it was spoken about how long her and her husband were involved in each other’s lives…since 7th grade.

Annabelle Lee
Edgar Allen Poe

"It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love -
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulcher
In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me
Yes! that was the reason
(as all men know, In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.
But our love was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we
Of many far wiser than we
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.
For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling, my darling, my life and my bride,
In the sepulcher there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea. "